Germany

Well I haven't written on here for ages! Been very busy.

In the last few months lots of things have come to a head.....by this I mean some shit hit the fan! But as always Jesus did give me warning and preparation to deal with it all.

This is a time for me and many people I know where hidden things are being bought into light, therefore making people and me face the consequences of our actions. I am seeing more how our actions do have an incredible effect on the body of christ.....whether we see it or not. and where someone is broken and in need of healing it affects those arround them........I know it has become a cliche but all parts of the body are connected, and if one area is hurt, bleeding, broken or just grazed it has impact.

I went to Germany at the beggining of July which was a time to escape and get some healing away from England and in particular bournemouth. I had been dealing with more of the same old attacking from satan who likes to use accusation and isolation to get to me. It had even got so far from one particular person that I was getting threatening telephone calls and I had to get the police involved.
when Jesus said 'people will hate you because of me'........he was not kidding. But I forgive all that has happened because there is no other way.

So I was invaded by Germans! They totally broke into my shell, wanted to know everything about me, totally loved me and recieved me and blessed me! It was so what I needed. So now I feel revitalised and ready for what ever is next!

Jesus addressed my past present and future one day in the middle of a vineyard. That was pretty awsome!

dream 9/5/2006

For the last couple of weeks my ears haven't been 'hearing' the voice of God, my attentions have been turned to all the exciting changes and the amzing things God has been placing on my path.

This morning I had one of those crazy God dreams. I had dropped conrad off at work for 7.45 am and I just snook back onto bed for an hour as it is so nice and comfy....and dropped off.
Anyway I had a dream I was at some conference thing and God told me to prophesy. Martin Scott was there who released a prophectic song........cant remember what he sang, but it was pretty good and I remember chuckling!
So Jesus was speaking through me and told me to say the following.

"We are in a time of unbelieveable healing. Healing so people may see and believe in me again in this nation, a time of more than signs and wonders. People will get healed of long term affliction, things they were born with, things they have lost all hope for, and they will have no doubt that I am God"

"I the lord am stealing people back, like I stole the israelites back, so will my people come back to me. I am stealing my people back out of the camps of the oppressor in the middle east, muslims, hindus & seeks will see Jesus and know the God of the ages, their father who loves them personally."

That's all I can remeber, but it is pretty powerful stuff. Lets pray Gods words come into fullness!

Thinking today

I have felt a bit overwhelmed today.....but in a good way!

I have been thinking of what has been happening these last couple of months, all the pressure, stress, worry, exhiliration and laughter. I have been taken through what feels like the depths of worry for my future---uncertainty---my life hanging in the balance, but then at the same time as living with this I have had a quiet confidence inside that knew I was on the right path and things would work out if I just held on in belief. Faith is an amazing thing. Faith and belief develops through these major times of uncertainty......and these such times are imperative for us all to grow.

This emerging testimony of what God is doing in my life is just incredible, beyond my wildest dreams. Over 3000 people applied to the foundation year of the Medical degree I have been accepted onto, and there are only 16 places available overall, and I got one of them.......what are the chances??
This is why I am overwhelmed. When God says he wants you to do something and you simply say yes to Him in blind faith, not trying to work out the situation for yourself, or needing to know the step by step formula of how things will work out, HE WILL DO IT! I dont have the right qualifications, hospital experience, or background to get onto a Medical Degree, and many told me I was being foolish, that it was impossible and I wasn't good or intelligent enough.........but guess what, God has his way.......always, when we let him! It is always best to be obedient......even when everyone else is telling you you are wrong. Do what you have heard.

All things are possible with God.

So I am overwhelemd by all this......God loves me so much that he makes my path straight.



Psalm 23.


The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.


Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death (or through the darkest valley),
I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

I have been watching series 2 of 'Lost' and at one point 2 guys say this psalm, and I cried so hard as I felt the presence of Jesus in the room with me, and he particually spoke to me about how he is preparing and has prepared a massive feast, a royal spread and I am the guest of honour at his table in front of my enemies!
Not that I particually have enemies, but many have been persecuting me and throwing accusations and telling lies......and I have forgiven them as I know the battle is not personal, but that sentance You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies just reminded me of Gods promises of protection, and I will not want for anything, and those who are not walking with Jesus will see what God does in my life for his sake.

Just call me DR. Adams.

I Got into Cardiff Medical School!!!!!!!!!!

Just to recap on the story, I dont have the right qualifications, background and work experience, the interview closing date had been and passed and everyone was telling me I could not get into medicine.

On friday 21/4/06 I was invited for an interview for the A106 Medical degree, which took place last friday 28/4/06 well after the closing date.

Today I was informed that I was successful in getting a place under a conditional offer. The conditions are that I pass my current biology & chemistry course by at least 70% and pass maths with a Grade B.

Jesus rocks. Cardiff here we come.

Coming into time.

Hi, below is a recent post from Martin about things coming into Gods timing.

When in Birmingham with Shannon a while back, we prayed many things at about 2 am and one of them was coming into line with God's plans and timing, and we prayed for a quickening to take place in our spirits to catch us up into God's season.
These really are pivitol, life changing days......hold onto your dreams as they are not as far off as we humanly think!


Stopped clock
Martin Scott
May 01, 2006


Not quite sure why the story of the clock that I attached to the end of Steve's report to Athens did not go through.... Here it is:

For some time I have carried a message related to Hezekiah - he lost his heritage and the future because he had no future vision. He aksed for the clock to go back. I carried this message in an ammended form to Stoke on Trent over the weekend. (BTW great things are happening there: scores have come to Christ, and many hundreds have come back to the Lord in the last few weeks - conservative figures).

While eating dinner prior to the evening meeting with Phil and Sue Barber and family, I looked at the clock but Phil said that the battery-operated clock in the dining room had been stopped for something around a month. These are days of signs and... I left the room to 'get my thoughts ready for tonight'. Once I had left the room the closk started and was 20 minutes or so ahead of time.

This spoke deeply into the situation, and I believe it speaks wider:
1) That the clock has started but there is now an acceleration of time. We cannot even think about the good old days.
2) Things that have been stuck can now be released back on track.

I find this significant as I write this on May 1st. The last day of the April 19-May 1 occult season. This month is very pivotal to get us ready for the last months of the year when I anticipate we will find a number of things coming into place that we did not think would begin until perhaps 12-24 months later.

The clocks are starting but not telling what we think is the real time - we have now to catch up.
Martin

Medical School

I have got an Interview at Cardiff Med School on Friday 28th @ 4.20pm.

Jesus your will be done. either way, yes or no I trust you......it is your choice, and whatever happens I can face it with you by my side.

Come on!!!!!!!!!!! Shove it up the noses of those who say God doesn't exist so they can smell the sweet fragrance of 'Jesus is with us, now always and forever' and HE RULES CREATION, not the empire builders and self appointed kings. All is possible with God, If you take anything away from me and my absurd life, take this......HOLD ONTO YOUR DREAMS, IT IS NEVER TO LATE.
The creator, I AM, made slaves into Kings, chose the most insignificant little people to rule nations and HE still does it today to make his presence and glory and power known. Say yes to him.

I also explained to someone the other day what I am doing and all the crap that is getting chucked at me because of my choices, and this person who I admire so much said to me ' You are one wonderfully courageous lady --- you are setting out a pattern for others." And I cried so much as not many people have encouraged me, just a handful have believed I am following Jesus and have blessed me, so it was soooo good to hear after this last month. Thank you those of you who have blessed me, you know who you are and so does God.

Say yes to Him and follow him with all your heart........the cost doesn't matter or compare to what he has done for you.

Today's thoughts

Today has been good. I particually enjoyed prank calling some of my friends with a George w. Bush soundboard. Hehe! "I'm george w" & "Don't mess with Texas". Very amusing. www.soundboard.com

The most profound thought of the day was when I realised I wasnt in a bad mood, or depressed, or angry........so it ment that I was good. I like it when I all of a sudden realise that I am having a good day. It is important for me to remember them, as I'm sure they do out weigh the 'shit hit's the fan' days, but the bad days tend to stick in the memory much more easily.

I once heard someone say "A warrior is made redundant if there is no battle". Perhaps this is why I remember the crappy days.......the days you have to fight for space, to exist, to be treated with love and respect, to be heard through all the noise.

But actually today I am at peace. I am starting to learn what this means. Resting in God. Waiting in his peace and love. I cant be off fighting everyday if I have wounds or I haven't rested from the last battle.
But more importantly God wants us to enjoy his creation, people, and the life we have in the spaces between fighting........why? To remember why you are fighting in the first place, and to have relationships.

So I am choosing my battles more carefully, infact only the ones Jesus say's yes to because I will not win on my own strength, and also I am recognising the peaceful days better when they come and they are precious treasures and so needed.

Today has been great. I have eaten and drank well, seen a few people that love me, I have been in my warm house with everything that I need, my car is getting fixed, people are praying for me in Wales, my mom called to give me some money out of the blue, I imparted some 'marriage advice' to a friend, have got some of my college work done.............yes today has been an awsome day.

Yesterday

Yesterday was a tough day. I don't know what to write here about it as I must have forgiveness in my heart but again I am 'going through it' and getting accusation, control, manipulation, speculation, un-godly questioning, and provocation chucked at me from satan to shut me up and close me down. It was not just to me but also my husband too, from someone very close who we had opened our home up to. I have been praying for the person today and blessing and blessing and blessing the person as I have to as this is what Jesus challenges us to do.
I am hoping for a way through this whole situation as it is not something that can be brushed under the carpet, and the person/people involved can have a large and mostly damaging effect on Conrad and my relationship.
So if you pray, please pray for us.
But in all of this I am encouraged to know that this persecution is coming because I am following Jesus. I will not be controlled, I will not be manipulated, I will serve only God and only his purposes. People will not have power over me, and I will not serve their purposes, needs, wants or desires. But Jesus, show me how to Love these people as you command me to do.

Cardiff University

Hello all who read my blog----yes you!

Today I spoke to Cardiff Uni and they have asked my college for a further reference for me! This is a good sign. They still have available places and have not decided the outcome of my application yet......which is very late in the hour.....so if there is a heavenly battle I pray for a quickening of satan's ass kicking.
Please can you pray for me as if I do get into Cardiff to study medicine, this will be such a testimony as I do not have the 'right' qualifications, experience, family background or anything really to get in naturally or on ability! It would be especially great if I do get in as all year I have been sharing with people at college "The only way I will get into med school will be by God's power" so it would be fab to tell them all God got me in........now you must believe in HIM! He's the alpha and omega baby!

But anyway........these are my hopes and desires, most of all pray that God's will be done in my and conrads life and we submit to His plans.

Revival or Ressurection? You choose.

"A year of life at this time, with its wonderful possibilities for God, is worth a hundred years of ordinary life. Pentecost is knocking at our doors. The revival for our country is no longer a question. Slowly the tide has been rising until in the very near future we believe a deluge of salvation that will sweep all before it...the Spirit of reviving is coming upon us, driven by the breath of God, the Holy Ghost. The clouds are gathering rapidly, big with mighty rain...

Heroes will arise from the dust of obscure and despised circumstances, whose names will be emblazoned on Heaven's eternal page of fame. The Spirit is brooding over our land again as at creation's dawn...Brother, Sister if we all believed God can you realise what would happen? Many of us here are living for nothing else..."

Frank Bartleman - Azusa Street, 1906

Prayers from the past

My Nanny Pauline, who is my Dad's mom left me her bible. She died when I was very young so I never had the opportunity of knowing her or much about her......Only stuff on passing mention by my mom.
I hadn't read the bible she left me for quite a long time (since 1992) since I was 12! But yesterday I opened it up and read what she left me, which said:

"Sarah Pauline Wooldridge (my dads surname)

that in your life you shall be of Christian faith,

that this bible shall help you as it has often helped me,

your grandmother.

Pray and you shall be heard

Have faith in what you can't see

and from the higher eternal life

you shall receive the love and guidance you need.

The light of God be with you."

I cried and cried when I read this.........Because she loved me so much, and I didn't even know her. There isn't much love in my family unfortunately, and none are believers (yet), but this lady who knew suffering, who had her legs aputated, and was in a wheelchair loved God.

I am so thankful for her faith, and mostly for her love for me. Because she loved me so much and I know she must have prayed and prayed for me to belong to Jesus.

My mom told me once of a time when me and my sister were really sick as little kids with fever and stuff, but before she took us to the doctors, my mom took us to my Nanny to lay hands on us and pray over us!!! She said she always used to lay hands and pray for us when we had headaches or even a scraped knee. How amazing.

Sometimes I really feel a deficit with the fact that none of my family know Jesus, so there are no stories to pass on, no wisdom to receive from my older relatives who have walked with God through hard and joyful times, and no fellowship to have with them. In this I do feel very alone as I don't have natural family to turn to..........But reading this little black battered from use bible, I feel a history and a story I belong to that has been in my family for generations.

Our prayers are so precious for each other, God does hear them and honour them. We have the ability to bless future generations and call things into being from the heavens.

I know my Nanny must have asked God for her family line to continue to know him.....And here I am, God heard her payers and chose me as his very own.

She has circled some scriptures in the bible she left.......they must have been words she held onto and left for me.....this is one of them:

Romans 8

28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
31What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." 37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 9

14 What then shall we say? Is God unjust? Not at all! 15 For he says to Moses, "I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion." 16 It does not, therefore, depend on man's desire or effort, but on God's mercy. 17 For the Scripture says to Pharaoh: "I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth." 18Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden.
19 One of you will say to me: "Then why does God still blame us? For who resists his will?" 20 But who are you, O man, to talk back to God? "Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, 'Why did you make me like this?' " 21 Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?

An Apostle eh??

My head is full of nonsense most of the time, but sometimes the voice of Jesus comes clearly....Very clearly. I am going through such a refining right now......There is not another word for it.......I am getting melted, to be purified, to be put into a mold and to be set for this next season God has prepared for me. This is a continuous process in all of us, but wow, the very core of me, who I think I am, what I think I know, and what I think I've seen for my life, is being completely shaken, moved, changed, re-renewed, grated, seasoned and spun upside down. And I am having to give up all of my ambitions, dreams and desires to Jesus as a sacrifice.

I know many things about myself......But through fear of God I do not dare to declare them. Why.....Because Jesus is deadly serious. He will build his church, his living stones.......The way HE wants to and sees fit. He will have HIS way in my life and HIS WORD will return to HIM fulfilled. If the desire he has put in my heart is his will......then HE will see to it that it will happen. I can no longer try to perform such tasks for myself.....it is a wrong heart desire for me to build my own name and reputation and become puffed up.

Man can only build a tower like babel, but God created the Universe in 7 days and brings the dead to life.

So I am hearing many in these days claiming to be an Apostle. What a mighty claim. I am rejoicing that the lord is restoring his people to a revelation of the fivefold ministry gifts in the Body of Christ.......BUT......where are the signs and wonders???

Acts 2
43Everyone was filled with awe, and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles.
Acts 4
33With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and much grace was upon them all.
Acts 5
12The apostles performed many miraculous signs and wonders among the people. And all the believers used to meet together in Solomon's Colonnade.


The list is quite long.......The sign that an apostle was with the people was wonders, signs, miracles, a grace upon them, testimony of the ressurection...........etc.........

I cannot dare to think I am an apostle of christ. I am still waiting for my personal day of pentecost.....for the Promise of the annointing to be on me to go out and preach to the nations of what Jesus has done, heal the sick, raise the dead, and cast out unclean spirits.

Yes I am a follower.........and I will continue to follow Jesus' narrow way...........but I cannot operate out of my own strength and call it God. The world is not stupid. When people gazed upon Jesus they knew he was the lord. When people gaze upon my efforts which are not in line with jesus, which he has not ordained..........the things which I think are Good God Ideas..........the world Knows heaven is not in it and remains uneffected and dead.

I would rather not speak another word then prophesy empty words which bring no life and have no eternal effect.

"You never have to advertise a fire." Leonard Ravenhill

A time for everything

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

2 a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.


9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

15 Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.

16 And I saw something else under the sun:
In the place of judgment—wickedness was there,
in the place of justice—wickedness was there.

17 I thought in my heart,
"God will bring to judgment
both the righteous and the wicked,
for there will be a time for every activity,
a time for every deed."

18 I also thought, "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals. 19 Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath ; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. 20 All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. 21 Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal goes down into the earth?"

22 So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

'Rockers' crying out.....Luke 19

28After Jesus had said this, he went on ahead, going up to Jerusalem. 29As he approached Bethphage and Bethany at the hill called the Mount of Olives, he sent two of his disciples, saying to them, 30"Go to the village ahead of you, and as you enter it, you will find a colt tied there, which no one has ever ridden. Untie it and bring it here. 31If anyone asks you, 'Why are you untying it?' tell him, 'The Lord needs it.' "
32Those who were sent ahead went and found it just as he had told them. 33As they were untying the colt, its owners asked them, "Why are you untying the colt?"
34They replied, "The Lord needs it."
35They brought it to Jesus, threw their cloaks on the colt and put Jesus on it. 36As he went along, people spread their cloaks on the road.
37When he came near the place where the road goes down the Mount of Olives, the whole crowd of disciples began joyfully to praise God in loud voices for all the miracles they had seen: 38"Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord!" "Peace in heaven and glory in the highest!"
39Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to Jesus, "Teacher, rebuke your disciples!"
40"I tell you," he replied, "if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out."


So I was half thinking the other day......in the shower......about all of the countless songs and lyrics that have spoken to me these last years.....most songs not from christians. Just thinking of a song out in the charts at the moment by a guy who is blatantly searching for Jesus....Dave Grohl sings these words.......

Foo Fighters - No Way Back Lyrics

Lately, I've been

Livin' in my head

The rest of me is dead,

I dying for truth.

Make me, fully,

No more left and right,

Come on take my side,

I'm fightin' for you,

Fightin' for you.

Pleased to meet you take my hand,

There is no way back from here,

Pleased to meet you say your prayers,

There is no way back from here,

But I don't care,

No way back from here.

Wake me, I'm ready,

Somethin' don't seem right,

I was dreamin',

I was talkin' to you,

Memory, bear me,

Know I've seen my share,

Things I can't repair,

I'm breakin' to you,

I'm breakin' to you.

Pleased to meet you take my hand,

There is no way back from here,

Pleased to meet you say your prayers,

There is no way back from here,

But I don't care,

No way back from, here.

Pleased to meet you say your prayers,

There is no way back from here,

Pleased to meet you say your prayers,

There is no way back from here,

But I don't care,

No way back from, here.

So I hear these words, and I dont know where he gets his inspiration from, but my God....he is crying out for truth!!! And who has the truth living in us?? Us christian people. We should be declaring Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord! "Peace in heaven and glory in the highest!" And speaking of all the miracles and our living testimonies. We should be shouting out Jesus is the King, He is the way the truth and the life! Not arguing over what church is, silly arguments over denominations or interpretations.....it is a waste of our mouths!

But Jesus' words are if we do not shout these things out, if we keep quiet, the very stones will cry out.

So half Joking (but not really a joke) I thought stones.....Rocks, Rock music. The Rock musicians like U2, Bob Dylan, Sting, Foo Fighters, Johnny Cash and countless others have been crying out from their wilderness' and fringes searching for Jesus and truth, speaking Gods words, speaking and commenting on our culture and the state of our nations and how the people feel. NO doubt many christians will disagree with me a this point.......but Jesus lives and stand in and through all creation.....who says He cant choose people we may think do not know him to speak for him???And who are we to think we are the only ones who can hear creation crying out and Gods words booming from the heavens???

And something in the scripture above makes these songwriters and singers words feel even more real to me is that Jesus chose the 'untame' wild colt that had never been ridden before (i dare to say perhaps no one could control it) to ride on. So it is very possible for me to believe Jesus choses the untame, uncontrolled people to speak through.

This is a challenge to me and you........not to be silent.